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Future Career

I have been contemplating non-stop about my future these days and it is getting rather bothersome.  This was something that happened last year as well and now its RECURRING.  I am honestly unsure of how my future will turn out now.  

So here's my dilemma: 
I have wanted to be a doctor all my high school years and I am most likely applying to study sciences during my undergraduate.  However, this career never felt right to me and I feel like I was never made to do something like this.  Although I have told numerous people that being a doctor is my personal dream and that it wasn't influenced by my parents at all, I am really starting to question that.  A counselor that I previously spoke to said that I should really take this year to think about what I really want to do in life.  It just so happens that I picked the month before Uni apps are do to start changing my mind.  Sigh.  Decisions, decisions.  Life is never easy.  

SO after some sort of process of thought, I have decided that I would go with sciences first.  During my first years of undergraduate, I will take on some internships that will most likely range from being a PR, HR, or trying out the fashion industry.  The fashion industry is definitely something that has always been of interest to me; although it is an incredibly hectic and exhausting industry.  

That's all I can muster up before heading to bed.  It's only 9:26 pm but I want to get a good nights sleep to take on this coming week!  

Cheers,
Renee 

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Thrifting

I'm no expert at all on thrifting.  I actually suck at it because every time I go, I never find anything worth buying.  I'm not sure if it's because of my skill, or the thrift shop I go to just sucks in general, the clothes there just don't have the thrift vibe to it.  However, I was in luck this time >_<.

It happened in the bags section and my friend was trying on high waisted jeans to diy into shorts.  I was bored while waiting for her so i browsed around the bag rack.  To be honest, out of the whole store, the bag rack is my favorite section -______- but that's besides the point. I looked at a few shoulder bags and such and found a couple that were pretty cute.  I was mostly looking for a bag that I could use for summer school though because no way am I going to carry my gigantic backpack for a measly notebook.  I even checked out this striped summery bag and was interested for a while until I realized it was a bag that mothers used to put diapers and other crap inside.  That sorta grossed me out even though it seemed pretty clean :S.  So I continued browsing around and ...

I SUDDENLY SAW IT.  

It actually wasn't that eye catching.  I had to look carefully before I found it but I found it nonetheless muahahaha.  I have actually been looking for forever for one of these bags...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh <3

Okay, some of you are probably going like wtf that looks weird.  But I swear, when  its carried on an actual human's back (my back in particular) it's freaking cute.  And also, when I was ligning up to pay for the bag, I was carrying it in my arm and it feels like a book ^_^.  I just find that extremely attractive in a bag lol.  And I also like the squirky sounds it makes when the leather rubs against each other.  Which reminds me.. ITS LEATHER.   8 dollars for leather is a steal if you ask me.  The post is probably getting kinda boring since the whole thing talked about a bag.. so I'll end it here.  One last thing I want to say is, IM IN LOVEEE.  k bai :).  

Summer school is a spatula

I have come to the conclusion that this summer school affair is one BIG SPATULA!!!  One that is used to scramble and fry your brains until they become overcooked and burnt.  My whole summer was ruined because of this stupid thing and I have suffered a whole 4 weeks and a half of my summer wallowing in misery.  FML. 
Okay maybe it's not that bad since I did sorta exaggerate on how bad everything is, but seriously, it has totally destroyed my vacation with tests and quizzes.  I'm so stressed out that I'm on the verge of getting an acne breakout.  I haven't gotten it yet but the time is near...I can feel it in my bones.  Or it could just be because my time of the month is approaching:/  I really dont know. 
The real reason behind this misery is because of the grade I'm getting.  I am very strict on my grade standards so when I found out I was getting a B on my summer school interim I basically just quit.  Not completely of course but I was pretty pissed off at how hard everything was and all and I wasn't getting enough time with my iPod!  Okay sure maybe I deserved it for not being able to control my iPod addiction but seriously HOW COULD I???  It's such a flat pretty piece of amazing time killing fun.  Really, how can ANYONE resist??  If you can resist, all I have to say is... no, I have nothing to say as I am utterly speachless at your abilities. 
But guess what??  ...my iPod got confiscatedTT^TT  And I was told that I won't get a back until I graduate from highschool.  So that means that my iPod will be sitting somewhere unknown and unused for 2 years?!  Saddest thing ever.  After the starving and suffering people around the world of course....
So now I am blogging while trying to study for my final exam...YES FINAL EXAM!!!!  So that means it's ending!!!!  In exactly 2 days to be exact...no actually one day since the last day has nothing whatsover besides getting back my $50 textbook deposit!!!!  And my (ugh) report card.  The least I can do is try to squeeze by with an A so I got to study hard tonight! 
Since tomorrow is the final exam, I will be able to relax right after class tomorrow!!! YAY:D  But I also have an interview for this St. John's Ambulance Brigade thing.  Sighs...Oh well, it's easy apparently so it's all good!
BTW I have been reading a lot of XiaXue's blog recently and to be honest, it's been the most entertaining experience I have had in a while.  To some of you maybe you're going like "Oh god you have such a sorry life!" I don't.  Her blog is seriously really fun to read. 

So I guess that will be all:)
Sorry if I bored you at all~
Reneexoxo

PS.  Just a slurge of excitement at the end...IT'S GONNA BE MY BIRTHDAY IN 4 DAYS:))))  I'm going to the beach with some friends and it's gonna be awesomeeee!!  Unless the weather starts to PMS which I really hope it doesn't because that would just be a huge bummer.... and I just checked the weather forecast and Aug. 14 is started to look worse by the day;(  NOOOOO this isn't happening!!!  But Aug. 13 looks pretty good:)  That could be a back-up plan...  Anyways, I am officially ending this post!

Rice water:3

Hello everyone!
Today I will be sharing with you all a discovery of mine:) and that is RICE WATER!  You know, the water that you get when you wash your rice!  So here's the story of how I discovered this secret treasure. 
So one day, I was washing the rice because that is what you do before you cook it and I felt that I should do something environmentally friendly so I saved the rice water so I can wash dishes with it (for all of you who didn't know, yes you can wash your dishes with rice water).  So I started the rice cooker and I turned to my bowl of rice water and all of a sudden it hit me: since rice water is used to wash dishes because of its ability to absorb grease can it also have skin benefits???  So I swiped out my iPod and searched it up and sure enough, IT CAN!!!:D  In fact, a lot of people wash their faces with rice water.  It is said that it can improve your complexion and make your skin less oily!  Now unfortunately, most people can't see obvious results right away unlike the Oatmeal Cleanser that I posted about so just like most cosmetic products, you'll have to wait for long-term results. 

How to use:
There is no special way of using it besides just applying it to your face like a toner.  What I do is I pour some into my hands and pat it onto my face just like a toner except I put on a lot.  Then I take a dry/a teeny bit damp towel and pat my face dry.
**Optional: Since I'm cooking rice anyways, I put my face 30 cm above the lid of the rice cooker and steam my face for about 10 min.

My skin felt soft and supple right away and will became paler but the results depend on what skin type you have. 

The good thing about rice water is that it costs next to nothing and it wouldn't hurt to try it.  Plus, it's completely natural so by washing your face (and dishes) with rice water you're doing something for the environment!!! 

Good luck!
Reneexoxo

P.S. If you think your rice might be a bit dirty, wash it once first and use the water on the second time^^

Oatmeal Cleanser

Hey guys!  Long time no see:) 
So I have been crazy about this thing lately, and it is just as the title says OATMEAL CLEASER!!  This may sound odd but I have been washing my face with oatmeal and trust me, it works wonders.  I got it from a youtube guru called Bubzbeauty and I recommend her to all!!  She has these wonderful home remedies for your skin and her videos are so fun and interesting to watch.  The stuff she uses are really inexpensive and common (ie. oatmeal)  and create wonderful results:3 

So getting back to the oatmeal cleanser...

How to use:

1. Take a small handful of oatmeal(quick oats or any natural oats) and hold it in a fist.
2. Put your fist in running tap water and let the water seep through the gaps of your fist saturating the oatmeal.  
3. Open up your hand and sprinkle some water on the oatmeal to give it more saturation.  
4. Now SQUEEZE the oatmeal and you will see this milky liquid come out (hehe).  
5. Dab the liquid on your face to loosen up your skin. 
6. Now make sure you have equal amounts of saturated oatmeal on both your hands and scrub it (but not too hard! ><) onto your face.  
7. Rinse it off with lukewarm water (Make sure you have a strainer in your sink if you don't want to end up trying to get this gooey glob of disgusting unknown crap out of your pipes=^=)
8. Optional:  I like to keep it on until it dries before rinsing it off.

My Results
This is a product where you will definitely get short term results.  When I first tried it, I found that it made my blackheads less noticeable as the dark color lightened.  My skin was also a lot softer since it was exfoliated by the oatmeal.  I haven't been using this for that long so I can't say for sure what the long-term results are but some people have said that it made most of their blackheads go away after only a few weeks. 
As for how often to use it, my personal opinion is that you should use it once everyday at night because it is too much of a fuss to use it in the morning if you're in a hurry to go to school or work...

Oatmeal facts~
Oatmeal is an effective skin remedy for dry skin because it contains polysaccharides, which becomes gelatinous in water and leaves a thin protective coat on the skin.  It relieves skin irritation almost immediately and helps (enormously) in restoring the natural moisture balance in your skin.  It absorbs oil and gently cleans out the dirt and clog in your pores due to the natural cleanser it contains called saponin.

For all you people out there who dislike eating oatmeal (ie. ahem ME)  it's not completely useless because its effects on your skin are AWESOME.  Oatmeal is something super easy to find and super cheap to buy so I would definitely recommend buying some to store in your washroom and use. 

And don't worry, I am truthful in everything I said in this post and I didn't exagerate in my results at all.  If you didn't get the same results then perhaps it is the difference in skin types.  However, either way, I am sure that all could get some sort of benefit in using oatmeal regardless of the degree to which it helps...unless you're allergic, then I wouldn't recommend this at all.  Plus, because using oatmeal as a cleaser is 100% natural, people with ultra sensitive skin can use it without a worry as it contains ZERO harsh chemicals.  AND IT'S ENVIRONMENTALLY FRIENDLY^.^ 

That would be all for this post...TRY IT

Love,
Reneexoxo

PS.  I attached Bubzbeauty's video as I thought maybe it would clarify the directions.  Good luck!

Papaya is a miracle!

Aight blog!  Long time no see:)  But that's okay because I'm back!!!  I may be talking to myself but I like it^3^  So today we'll be discussing the Miracle Fruit...PAPAYA!!!

I recently fell in love with this fruit because it's just so delicious and yummy and full of awesome goodness!  The taste may taste weird at first as it had for me but for some unknown reason, after eating two of them topped with yogurt, I started liking the taste and now I eat it without anything!  It's so yummy that I can't understand how can I ever have disliked the taste...

Anyways, I would present you with a bunch of scientific terms to describe this fruit but I seriously don't remember any of it and there's no point in copy and pasting from other sites because that would just be basically taking the credit for something I didn't write.  So today, I will discuss my personal experience with this pretty orange fruit:)

How I eat it
Maybe you all already know how to eat it but I'll just mention it for the sake of it.  What I do is, I wash it thoroughly first, take a knife, cut the fruit in half, clean out the seeds, and eat the orange stuff with a spoon!  I find this way the easiest as the fruit has a really soft texture and is easy to scoop.

Using it to the full potential~
One of the best things about papaya is that you don't just eat the orange stuff and through it away, you can use the skin and seeds too!  Now the seeds are something I don't really like but there are people out there who buy dried papaya seeds!  The seeds have a peppery taste to it so you can give it a try to see if you like the taste.  People use the seeds for seasoning of salad dressings and other food so it is pretty useful.  The skin is what I find to be the best part because after finishing the papaya, you can rub the skin onto your skin and it will work as a papaya juice facial!  The papaya juice is somewhat acidic and can clean out dead skin cells from your face.  So after you rub the papaya skin onto your face leave it on for about 5 min and rinse it off.  It helped put a glow to my skin so I suggest you try it!  
***Warning: Do not leave on for too long as its acid properties can cause dryness and irritation!!  Beware if you have sensitive skin!

What wonders it beholds
I can't help but throw in some scientific facts for this one so here goes!
This fruit is EXTREMELY abundant in vitamin C so it is super good for the skin.  It helps remove toxins from body which will result in clear smooth skin.  Its properties also promote the removal of dead skin cells thus helping with anti-aging of the skin. 

For all you small chested people(hehe), the papaya enzyme contains medium tight hormones and vitamin A which stimulates female hormones which also stimulates...CHEST GROWTH!  It's super awesome.  Unfortunately, I can't really tell if it's working for me because, you know, you can't exactly say what's causing your boobs to grow, but I'm pretty sure it helps even the tiniest bit because mine have been sorta growing...just saying!

I'm not sure if this is proven, but apparently, papaya enzymes also increase metabolism (or something like that) so it helps remove excess fat!  I can't really tell if it's working for me neither since I'm already on a diet but again, I'm sure it helps!  Of course, you can't rely on eating papayas to lose weight as weight loss involves exercising and maintaining a healthy diet, but since the papaya already has so many other benefits that already makes it an amazing fruit, GO TRY IT ANYWAYS!!

It might be sort of expensive but it's not required that you eat it every day!  One papaya a week is sufficient.  You can slice the papaya in half, eat one half a day and save the other half for another day and that will be 2 servings a week.  It's what I do and it still works wonders for me! 

Hope you enjoyed this!

Much love,
Renee xoxo

Paranoia

As I stared into the starless night, my heart was being pulled by toxic hands.  They pulled me into suffocating quick sand, while burning me inside out.  At times like these, I'd rather die than live.  At times like these, death was Eden's garden; life was Heidi's kingdom. 

I wanted to claw out my eyes if that was what it took to gain attention.  Then again, what would I see the caring faces with if that was what I did?

Images shot through my collapsing brain like bullets. My hands filled with someone else's blood.  Bones crunching.  Screams.  They made me feel relieved.  I'm not doing this because I want to.  I'm doing this because these imaginary bullets stop themselves from materializing in reality.  I must use them, or else my life will just be a bloody circus.  I hate it.

I hate not being able to think happy thoughts.  If I do, then the opposite will happen.  That's how I came to think that having a free mind is dangerous. 

That man's face was painted.  He's shirtless.  His muscles rippled as he slipped out a knife from his pocket.  Ignoring me, he went into a cold, empty cement building.  Old rusty water left black streaks down the walls.  My lungs stopped expanding.  That building wasn't empty.  I choked.  My tears ignited.  My mother's scream plunged out of the building.  The world melted as I crumpled to the ground.  My skin stretched and plunged into the ground.  I'm never getting up.  The world is too cruel.  Knives began to fall.  Pierce me, I thought.

I opened my eyes.  My covers still layed neatly on top of me.  I licked the salty sweat from the top of my lip, then wiped it with the back of my hand.  It was just a dream.  My heart slowly returned to normal as I started breathing again.  I sighed in relief.  Then I screeched as a clawed hand dug into my face.  The hand had no owner.

My eyes slid open just in time to take in my mother laughing as she walked out of that cement building.  Then the rain of knives granted my wish before I had a taste of relief.

I sat on a skull in the pitch black night.  A starless sky was above my head as I plead for reality to take me back.  Though you are cruel, please take me back.  At least in reality, I only had to die once.

My birthday!

My birthday is approaching!  In exactly 3 days, I will meet with the day I was brought into this world!  Its the day when my personal year will be lived.  It is the Reneeland New Years.  I wonder if there is anyone out there who was born at the exact same time as me...I bet theres probably 3 people at the most.  Well, my birthday will be a special one this time because my age will be a multiple of 5!  How does that make it special?  ...I don't know, but whatever!  My dad says its special so I guess it is... 

So did you know you can get a free song from iTunes every week if you go to Starbucks and get one of those little cards from the counter?  It's pretty cool. But honestly, I really don't like the songs they offer.  I'm a fast-paced city girl and I really don't have the thing in me to listen to classic or slow flow, such as country music (with Love Story being the only exception).  Fast-pace is what I like even though it can be unhealthy for some people.  But since I like it and it makes me joyful its whats good for me~

Back to my birthday.  I want to be a spiffed up perky little ball of energy and down to the earth kind and caring and loving and bubbly sorta girl.  The kind of girl that easily molds herself into fitting into any group of people.  By that I don't mean totally changing my personality or anything like that, but just be easy-going and all.  Plus, I want to be straight forward.  Not the blurt whatever comes to your mind sort of thing but a speak your mind when your asked to sort of thing.  I wouldn't want to be those nosy people who just pokes into someone's converstion and just starts speaking your mind and in the end everybodys gonna be like "Uhhhh, who the hell asked you?!".  LOL.  That would be kinda embarrassing.

Also...I HAVE TO LEARN TO LET THINGS GO!!!!  I have been way too scrunched up for the past lifetime!!!  I mean, when I do something embarrassing it takes FOREVER to get over.  I have to learn to go with the flow~  Whoooooo.  Anyways, some commotion is going on with my weird crazy family.......and my mom just said the f word.  Uh oh!

Analysis- Will I vs. I will

 The difference between "will I" and "I will" is the fact that one is a question while the other is a command.  We would normally expect people who say "I will" to themselves to have more success; it shows more determination and confidence than saying "will I".  However, a startling study shows that those who say "will I" to themselves will actually obtain more success.

 I personally think the reason is because the statement "I will" rouses a sense of anxiety when someone says it.  It carries a feeling of a final decision and pressure.  "Will I", on the other hand, has a wavering tone that one uses in the middle of decision making.  Thus, one will have the tendency to explore the pros and cons before making the decision. Once the objective of the decision is clear, a strong foundation is formed and the person will complete the task with less pressure and more success than the one who said "I will".

Diary exert: Letter to 15 year old me.

Dear older me,    

     Maybe in 20 years, you will come back here again and meet the younger you.  Maybe you will forget, but it doesn't matter, since life will always go on.  
     As you worked your way through your studies, you have procrastinated, cried, cursed, and hated yourself.  There were also times when you felt you were the smartest person in the world.  And did you notice how I said "through your studies" instead "through your life"?  That was the type of girl you were.  Grades were the world.  All you cared about was getting into an elite university.  You wanted a bright future: you wanted to be rich, to be respected, to live a luxurious life.  Thus, you never cared about knowledge.  Or anything, other than getting good grades.  You would've done anything to get what you wanted.  You were superficial, yet you didn't like to act in front of teachers.  You liked brands, you manipulated parts of your body you didn't like; but you never acted in front of a teacher. You didn't pretend to be interested in something that you weren't interested in.  When you were interested in something, you would do your own research.  You didn't ask a ton of useless questions to try to express your interest.  When you wanted to know something, you asked one, straight to the point, question.  You hated little tricks and curves, you just wanted a clean strike through.  Whatever the difficulty was, you always managed to get past it.  Although you tend to have mood swings and fell sick often after or even during an intense project.  Despite all that you were still a mentally strong girl.  You hated to let people see you cry.  You only cried in front of them when you wanted them to see.  You didn't like to show true emotions.  Yet you shared tons of your secrets with friends.  But you lied about your emotions.
      You love coach bags, but you loved your mother more.  You went to a sample sale and spent 180 dollars on a coach bag with no permission; because you knew it was hard to find that sort of a deal.  Though you loved the bag, you gave it to your mother, just so you can see her smile.  You knew she longed for an expensive bag, but she never liked to spend so much money on herself.  But she would've spent twice as much on you without hesitation.  You understood how hard your dad worked to keep the family alive.  He was like a protective bubble wrap.  He was someone who thinks a 150 dollar coat is to expensive to wear on normal occasions when you wore Lululemon pants to the gym.  He was someone who started saving money for your university tuition fee ever since you were 5.  That is how much confidence your parents had in you.  Something you only truly realized while writing this today.
      Furthermore, you were someone who appreciated you family and friends who supported throughout your 15 years of rocky mountain hiking.  You cared about them more then anything, but you never liked to say things like "I really appreciate your company" or even "I love you" with a serious tone.  Maybe you thought words were cheap.  But actions aren't enough to show your appreciation anymore.  Therefore, you will write it here: in this private little corner of your world.  



To all of those who have supported me and spent time with me and made me laugh and helped me get past the roughest edges:  I love you and you will always have a place in my heart, forever.

Dialect Story

~A prevaricator like you has no right to talk in this house!
~Really!  A dilletante like you has some right to say that! 
~I was not the one who conspired with those heretical beings to swindle such a poor little boy.
~You are still a novice in our trade.  Watch your tongue.
~Nonsense!  Novice or not, the basic human moral grounds is evident and free for any being to discuss!  You people are dirty I say and I have the right to say such a thing!
~Yes, yes.  You have complete right.  But say, since you mentioned moral grounds, do you think you have an unblemished reputation?  
~...
~Why have you turned taciturn?  Oh I see, you have no more moral grounds to stand on do you?  And to be silenced so easily!  You are the most docile thing I have ever handled!  Such a weakling...SERVANT!
~Yes sir.
~Escort this gentleman out the door.  I am tired of seeing him.
~Will do sir, this way sir.
(Front door opens and closes.  Ruffle of fabric.)
~Ah, hmmm.  Bed time.
(Creaking.  Footsteps.  Flames flicker and die.  Bedroom door closes.  Light scatters across the floor through the gap under the door.  Silence except for a little muffled scream.)

How did the heart shape come to be a symbol of love?

College Confidential

I have been reading threads on college confidential; especially the ones regarding Harvard.  From my reading, I have found that I still have a long way to go before I am qualified to apply for Harvard!  ACT, SAT I,and SAT II are tests that I have yet to take and have 2 years to take them.  Another goal I have, is to get involved in a long-term volunteer job in a hospital and to continue volunteering for other events that allows me to demonstrate and ameliorate my leadership skills.  I am also going to stop molding myself into an individual that I think will fit into the Harvard community, for that is a main element that contributed to the rejection of many.  As my art teacher once said, "If you just be yourself, you will always be accepted".  From this, I conclude, that I must be true to myself from now on and express thoughts that are my own and not manipulated by my peers.  This will not only help me become more independent and make me a better leader, but it will also allow me to enjoy my highschool years a lot more by stopping me from seeking the approval of others at all times. 


                                                      Good luck to me ;),
                                                                   Renee